Of Humanity and its flaws

One thing that has continously eluded my understanding is the standards by which our actions are judged which is usually done in accordance with our sex...... i know that the world we live is predominantly chauvinistic but y shud i pay for over grown egos that are probably making up for deficiencies in other areas of one's life that seek fulfilment or constant watering by flattery and undeserved praise! Sorry this's a bad day so let a woman vent. All this has been fueled by a number of circumstances

..... Found this among my drafts. i wonder what i was going on about

The evening that was.......

Things are different yet the seem keeps playing in my mind. My body is exhausted from a weekend that was merely an extension of my week. So as the week wound down i was coerced by my colleagues to go out for a couple of drinks which i agreed to but never again at least not in the near future. The day ended on a high and being a Thursday my workmates were excited about happy hour. Earlier on in the day i had been invited to go watch a band play and that i turned down to give this other plan a chance. We get to the bar and drinks are being ordered in multiples, the music is good and i am being teased for dancing on my seat. bite me. A couple of hours later everyone is talking over everyone else , the dancing is far from PG then shit hits the fan. seated behind us is a couple of gals that we found in the bar already intoxicated. As the evening proceeds they seem to be getting aggressive and falling all over the easily excitable 20 something year olds m in the company of. These had become easy prey a chance they weren't going to let slide. At some point one of the girls, far from light weight tries to pick a fight a fight with Barbara my colleague who immediately assumed "bitch bring it on" mode. The not so small instigator knew wen to back down and so she did. It always sucks to be the only sober one in a team and i was tempted to break my cleanse even after going strong for 3 months. yeeiiii me. An hour later Michael my colleague gets into it with the not so light weight chic. By this time i had concluded that this chic just needed an outlet for whatever issues she was dealing with. I always tell chics that they watch too many movies. Pouring drinks on a guy and expecting him to be a gentleman and maintain his composure doesn't fly with Ugandan men. A drunk one at that. I intercepted this fight right before Michael swung a punch at this chic with no reservation. Hitting a chic can never be justified but this chic was pushing it. In retrospect who did i think i was? Had a bottle been thrown at me then what? Michael is of a small frame but it took 4 of us to hold him back while reminding him that it wasn't worth being thrown into jail for.By that point i was ready to call it a night. I have never been able to understand why people cannot leave beer in a glass. Is it mandatory not to walk away from a half empty glass? i don't get it and i didn't stay behind to find out. Time check 11:25 pm i threw my deuces and was outta there. To think that the band i ditched totally rocked and pulled my kinda crowd.

CHAPTER 1

So i get this call asking whether its alright with me if my number were passed on for a project that the caller believed to be a perfect fit for me. I grudgingly accept knowing full well that this was so unlike him. Extremely private and calm and never one to over extend himself you can relate to my shock. it was two years later and he still kept his word that he would let me know if ever he heard of an opportunity that matched my skill set. A month and many 11 hr days later i have grown to love the team i manage. Feels like i never left. To summarize this jiberish, cheers to new beginnings and here is to a very adventurous six months

beaten but not broken

Been awhile. Feel like a prodigal daughter coming home. 2 yrs later older yet not the wiser. Almost there yet not quit. All week I hv been torn by a decision of whether or not to lay all my cards or let them go on their merry way. is ignorance indeed bliss? Looking out for a green light but it's too far off that it jus might be an illusion. Holding out but how much longer. Many doors I need to shut n not look back. 4 s teps forward n 8 back. All I want is to float with no care in the world. Reminds me of a friend that wished for life to hv a reset button. Would I do it all over again? The realist in me says keep it moving child. Blogger, see u soon