On christ the solid rock i stand

I am living testament of His mercies being new every morning. HE is not man that HE should lie or hold a grudge. By mortal standards i am irredeemable but i am thankful for grace and mercy.

Leonard Ravenhill said ' One that has encountered God cannot be at the mercy of a man with argument'. I believe that i have encountered God on many occasions amidst tears, laugheter, Joy and heartache. The kind of encounters i cannot sufficiently articulate for another comprehend the intensity and tangibility of my experience

I once felt heartache so deep that i felt the physical pain of it. When you break down so bad that the sobbing cannot let you utter a word of prayer except Lord hold me and in that moment you feel the warmth, an embrace in a room that has no one but yourself yet you know you are far from alone. I know God and HE knows me by name.

I have come to know Christ on a level so personal that His nature reveals itself to me in the most appropriate of times. In the recent of times i have put him to the test even with the most trivial of things that one can ask of their maker and HE never is short of amazing and humourous too.

During this lockdown period i have nmissed our car drive conversations. Yes it takes two and more to conversate but believe you me HE speaks to me not in the conventional way but still HE does speak. This same period also taught me that i don't have to restrict said interactions to the car.

.....to be continued.

Back like i never left

Where to begin.....
Its been awhile and not until today did i miss the urge to return to this my safe place, my haven. While away i lost myself on a journey to find my true authentic self. Whatever the latter means, the quest continues.Funny that i was the most confident, sharp tongued loud mouthed 30 year old going on 22. So full of life and optimism. Its been a journey, a myriad of experiences many bitter sweet. The naive child at heart i was quickly got the rug pulled from under her feet to land onto the bumpy road that is adulthood. Many i wouldn't take back, others i would. Sometimes the person staring back at me in the mirror is someone i knew years ago.

It hasn't been all bad. Along the way i learnt what true friendship is, often coming with bouts of tears, anger and rage but on most days laughter and endless conversations that kept me going.

True to the cliche, i have loved and lost, lived and parts of me have died but i rise everyday to face the world that is. As i type remind me to forget Kygo and Miguel is blaring through my ears.Every lyric of it resonates with me. I am here and i am back.

I will be seeing you soon.