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Captive.

by Nagasha Lefty on Wednesday, January 26, 2011 at 8:53pm
You found your way into my dreams...again.
You always knew just how to get in:find your way into those parts of me that I held sacred.
You fought your way into my heart...You embedded your face on my mind...
And now you haunt my dreams.

I fight you more each day, fight to forget you, to rub away your mark..
But I fight a victor..You branded me...Made sure the print was permanent... the grip on me, firm.
You accused me of weakness,of running...of giving up.
You saw from the start, how easily I could take flight.I bruised you when I gave up on us.
You saw the weakness that made me put up walls..But held so tight those who got in.

You turned and used my weaknesses against me.
You knew that time was all you had before the demons took over.
So all my time you consumed.You became my waking song..the shadow that followed me all day..
And when night came, the warmth that took away the harshness of the day.
Even as I ran...and put all those questions in your eyes,
Causing pain only I could see.You fought on.

I ran to find freedom, and ease..I ran from you that held me so captive.
Only I ran back to you, with pain in your eyes.And victory in your look.
You that knew me best.And sees the defeat on my face.Defeat you put there.
I ran from you...back to you.You made your way in,swore never to leave.
To torture me back.Now my own dreams master me.
Once a willing captive...now am a haunted prisoner.


Let me go.Please.

Uthman's message to Reich

'I'm being strong because I know that's what you would have wanted me to do but its sooo hard. I miss you my love. I miss you so much. I take comfort in that fact that I had someone like you in my life. You totally changed me for the better. You helped me grow and focus in life. You were truly exceptional. Nothing seemed to faze you. ...You had the world at your feet...so ambitious...so many plans. But I know God has a plan for everything. That's what He wanted. You were my wife, my companion, my bully buddy, my joke buddy, my travel mate but above all my best friend...my everything. I feel empty...soo empty. You left a magnitude of friends.. and that's all testament to the kind of person you were. I pray that the almighty forgives all your sins, multiplies your good deeds, receives you with golden gloves...ABL forever. God Gives and God Takes"

Letter to Reich

Dear Reich,
Its been 2 days and the shock seems to be growing instead of wearing off. I keep getting small but painful flashbacks.u were a beautiful woman inside and out and my heart only goes out to Uthman because i cannot begin to imagine his pain . wish i knew more abt him but unfortunately i dont........."never love a man more than he loves you..." thats the one statement i will forever remember you by my tree stamped friend.....

I need closure but i do not know how i will get it this time....

FAREWELL TO THEE....MY "MUHIMA"

Cannot explain the pain i feel right now and the shock i have failed to shake off. cant believe this is it and i kept hoping against hope that we would get to bid you farewell the only way known to us but because of religious differences the pending farewells still linger. You made such a beautiful bride and sad that i got to see the pic after you passed... .my heart is breaking

YO MERCIES ARE NEW EVERY MORNING......thats wats running through my mind right now. Powerful dont u think??????

Bright and Early

As i once said i am an annoyingly morning person.......and today was jus one of those mornings. I recite a string of prayers on my way to work every single day as i wait for the inspirational song that plays on power f.m at abt 7.30 a.m and somehow it always ministers to my soul. I once heard that you can command your spirit especially wen yo low or down n out so that is sth that i am practising....on those mornings that r not one of "those " mornings.....

Nursing an unfunny cold but i am sure i will be ok hopefully sooner than later