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Summarises the emptiness and desolation a state m in right now......in the background r the fading tunes of Goo Goo Dolls' iris that effortlessly translates where my head is....lets leave the heart outta this one cos once again it's a sell out.

Haze ii

Am tryin to be as chronological as i can in my recollection of events. So this third party trades our numbers n we immediately hit it off need i say i initiated it . We begin to chat exchanged a few details about our lives but limiting it to details ud give one uv jus met. This went on for close to a week on a daily n slowly realising that we had too much in common which in itself was abit scary and small as this town is we were sure we'd met before. Contrary to this thought we actually hadn't and resolved to keep it that way.... there was a beauty in opening yoself up to someone wit no fear of being judged cos they had no basis on which to do so. A week went by, the second did the same and we were stil at it, we then decide to meet!! Come that day things don't go as planned and he's held up so i took it to mean fate was at work. I first put the chatting on hold cos "MR rays" was gettin rubbed the wrong way n my defence of not knowing Haze's identity was playing in my favour...... the dare devil in me cudn't let go,she wanted to push this to the farthest it cud go....she'd come to far to let it die...wateva it was. On this 'fateful' day m driving to go pick up a bite wit Mr Rays when it hits me that we're in Haze's neighbourhood, i didn't waste any time grabbing at my phone n arrangin to meet even if for a second jus to feed my curiosity and put a face to a voice....might i add that it had gone from texting to 'goodnite' calls to checkin how my day was. Had i been one short of the attention n simple flattery to keep me goin n feed my esteem, wud have been sure i was 'clumsily falling in love' but Mr Rays' game is tight and keeps me in check and satisfied (open to subjective interpretation).
Anyways back to the story, we decide that he should drop by the restaurant we were at jus long enough for us to make eye contact and with this i had to be paper sharp n play my game right cos i was in company of the one i owe all honesty. So Haze arrives and asks me to describe wat m wearing but because i had been down this road once before i played it safe n said I wud look ofr him...... Boy was i wrong!! The face to this voice was simply Beautiful....yes u read right beautiful! That is one fine man ....tables turned and it was i that became conscious of whether i was wat he had imagined or had been over rated....... The chatting hasn't stopped which i think implies that i wasn't a total disappointment cos then he wud have bolted for dear life, but now i do't wit a grin as i see that face which an angelic ring loating over't.....So i ask when does this dream end and at wat point does Mr Rays come back into play.... Haze n i are to officially meet at a party tomoro so al be sure to keep u posted.....

Newbie

M comforted that new as i am at this it doesn't feel like the first day of skool. Don't know wat m doin here just yet but m sure al soon get the hang of it. Been achin all day to let my story be heard of my long awaited encounter with.....lemmi call him HAZE cos up until yesterday i knew of eveything about him but his identity. its happened to me before u chat up a stranger, groom a friendship to a point of bossom buddies and all the while uv built up an image of wat this stranger cud look like. Come d-day u meet n u start to wish ud limited contact to yo phone. Contrary to yo expectations he falls short of everything ud imagined.

Back to Haze, i was sure i was goin down the same road so this time didn't create any superficial images and instead limited myself to wat i had....a voice on the other which in itself wasnt much to go by. This supposed friendship started wen a fiend of mine told me of Haze n his supposed wedding. The dare devil in me wanted to understand why at 24 some stranger out there wanted to jump that not so small broom...... smehow our numbers were traded thru this 3 rd party and thats where it all begun.........

Wil be back with HAZE ii on the morrow.......