Hear my cry

Lord, my spirit is weak and so is my body. I feel a pang of pain that's a combination of uncertainty, disappointment and raging anger. Lord today i pray that you hold my hand through this day because i feel drained of all energy and hope. I am trying to be strong and optimistic but i am failing. Remind me father that with no expectations comes no disappointment. Feel like i am setting myself up and putting a gun to my head. Taken 2 steps in front and so many more behind. Help me find the peace m eternally searching for

To new beginnings

I am subscribing to the ideology of positive thinking in an attempt to stop casting doom upon my every endevour and not to see the ulterior motive behind every gesture. I woke up to a crappy morning but God has a way of working things out even if it means doing it thru some wacky dweeb that managed to unknowingly make me smile. thanks nympho.

So Masrata is holding their first ever "free and fair" local council elections governed by the slogan" just as u lined up at the front line, line up for the elections" as many were quoted saying finally they can exercise their rights and their comrades whose blood was shed wasn't in vain.While Masrata is draped in anticipation for a fresh start, Tripoli is engrossed in strife and unending battles with a new ruling body that hasn't registered any success yet or is it too early to tell? The moral of this story is, jus like Masrata, i too look forward to new beginnings, strong and lasting friendships, successes and the like. Here's to the positive me.....

21:16

Stand shawn stockman

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i seem to write wen under alota stress but if its a way out of it why not. 2012 feels like its out to get me yet at the same time is proving to be an adventure. every other day surprises me. I have met wat feels like the male version of me in nympho. feel like m on a journey with no map, blind folded yet still so safe. i am choosing to be happy inspite of everything, m open to learning new things n taking a peak into the lives of others n wat makes them tick. listened to ocean lab:satellite n lonely gal. i liked wat i heard. makes me wonder what else is out there that m blind to. feels like m at the beginning of my journey of self discovery which puzzles me cos shudnt this have happened when i was 18? ? ?

Fidel castro after usurping power from Baptista undertook drastic restructuring of every sector of the economy. There was gross inequality especially in service delivery.The mortality rate was alarming especially in the rural areas so he decided to redistribute all skilled doctors all over the country yet earning less than half of wat they initially were. They decided to flee cuba. He then used the remaining doctors to train university students. His philosophy was, "if u dont know,learn.If you know, teach". . . . Nympho, m willing to learn so teach me. Hold my hand n lets jump

Give me strength

Its yet another day and i cant articulate the pain i feel. Do i trust so easily or just never learn? Lord here n now i pray that you will drape me with your peace , that you teach me that YOU are enough

OMAR MUKHTA

King of the dessert as he was famously known he was a "rebel leader" in The Italo-Persian war of 1911-1930 a war that lasted nearly 20 years. Omar Mukhta defied the italian invasion and was determined to stamp them out with support from his persian allies. Him along with his sunite forces where driven out of the city towards the desert little did they know that he was armed with geographical knowledge that he would use to his advantage and put up a long standing battle against this invasion. He successfully frustrated their advances but in the late 1920's his forces were rounded up and put into camps. Ths greatly weakened them as they were deprived of food, spied on, constantly hit by italian forces thus undermining their resistance. Omar Mukhta was finally captured and paraded thru the town for all to see as a prize posession of the italians. He was convicted and sentenced to death by hanging. His efforts earned him the title Lion of the dessert that was later made into a movie. As he was being led to death he recited sayings and prayers from the quaran.... fast forward to 2011, does this sound familiar??

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhh

I have so much bottled up, screaming wudnt do me justice. Lord today i pray.....SIEVE MY LIFE